Ohhhh the struggle! The struggle of adulting. The struggles of drama. The struggles of relationships, trying to keep up with daily tasks, work, money, kids, sleep, friends and everything life throws our way. Y'all, the struggle is real! And it's exhausting! I feel like the moment I get a chance to catch my breath, another emergency comes my way. Pastor Steven Furtick, says it well, "life seems to find us either walking into a storm, in the middle of the storm or coming out of the storm". This life sometimes never seems to give us a break. At least for me. Is this for you too? Or am I the ONLY ONE riding the struggle bus to work every single day of my life?!
I write this with laughter, but my life seems to be a continuous struggle. Let's be honest, God KNOWS deep down that He's using my life as a ministry to show others that they're actually doing pretty darn good and that God is holding their lives together perfectly!!! I'm just kidding...... but seriously....... On a real note, I will be the first to admit to struggling with trying to juggle life! On top of all of my demands, God is calling me to start a ministry called, "Hire Her Now Ministry", and you know what? I'm terrified... I'm terrified because I don't know HOW IN THE WORLD it will all work out with all my weaknesses & lack of resources. I'll admit, for the last few months now, I settled by believing the whispers from the enemy telling me that not only am I'm not only unqualified to start this, but I'm disqualified because of the lack of EVERYTHING I don't have to confidently move forward. It leaves me with the thought process of A. "How on earth will I be able to juggle life and a ministry?! Let alone remember to feed my dog & husband!" B. "I don't have a clue what I'm doing!" And C. "How is God going to bring this ministry to life?" These are the times that I know I must be going crazy, OR that I'm ALREADY CRAZY. Who am I to be called to women's ministry? Why me? And why is God calling me to this huge task?
Today we had the second official Hire Her Now Ministry board meeting. I am left humbled and confident because Jesus showed up in an intense way. "For such a time as this" || Esther 4:14 ||, God placed women filled with His power and who are living out the gospel to walk along side of me in this journey. We dove into Hebrews 11 today to start out the meeting, and talk about a heart pounding, shout "AMEN", God smacking me over the head kind of scripture! It hit me hard due to my struggles of simply having faith, exercising my faith and truly relying on Christ to move forward with this ministry.
BUT GOD responded with this:
Hebrews 11 (ESV) // By Faith
1 Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen. 2 For by it the people of old received their commendation.
3 By faith we understand that the universe was created by the word of God, so that what is seen was not made out of things that are visible.
4 By faith Abel offered to God a more acceptable sacrifice than Cain, through which he was commended as righteous, God commending him by accepting his gifts. And through his faith, though he died, he still speaks.
5 By faith Enoch was taken up so that he should not see death, and he was not found, because God had taken him. Now before he was taken he was commended as having pleased God. 6 And without faith it is impossible to please him, for whoever would draw near to God must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who seek him.
7 By faith Noah, being warned by God concerning events as yet unseen, in reverent fear constructed an ark for the saving of his household. By this he condemned the world and became an heir of the righteousness that comes by faith.
8 By faith Abraham obeyed when he was called to go out to a place that he was to receive as an inheritance. And he went out, not knowing where he was going.
9 By faith he went to live in the land of promise, as in a foreign land, living in tents with Isaac and Jacob, heirs with him of the same promise. 10 For he was looking forward to the city that has foundations, whose designer and builder is God.
11 By faith Sarah herself received power to conceive, even when she was past the age, since she considered him faithful who had promised. 12 Therefore from one man, and him as good as dead, were born descendants as many as the stars of heaven and as many as the innumerable grains of sand by the seashore.
13 These all died in faith, not having received the things promised, but having seen them and greeted them from afar, and having acknowledged that they were strangers and exiles on the earth. 14 For people who speak thus make it clear that they are seeking a homeland.15 If they had been thinking of that land from which they had gone out,they would have had opportunity to return. 16 But as it is, they desire a better country, that is, a heavenly one. Therefore, God is not ashamed to be called their God, for he has prepared for them a city.
17 By faith Abraham, when he was tested, offered up Isaac, and he who had received the promises was in the act of offering up his only son, 18 of whom it was said, “Through Isaac shall your offspring be named.” 19 He considered that God was able even to raise him from the dead, from which, figuratively speaking, he did receive him back.
20 By faith Isaac invoked future blessings on Jacob and Esau.
21 By faith Jacob, when dying, blessed each of the sons of Joseph, bowing in worship over the head of his staff.
22 By faith Joseph, at the end of his life, made mention of the exodus of the Israelites and gave directions concerning his bones.
23 By faith Moses, when he was born, was hidden for three months by his parents, because they saw that the child was beautiful, and they were not afraid of the king's edict.
24 By faith Moses, when he was grown up, refused to be called the son of Pharaoh's daughter, 25 choosing rather to be mistreated with the people of God than to enjoy the fleeting pleasures of sin. 26 He considered the reproach of Christ greater wealth than the treasures of Egypt, for he was looking to the reward.
27 By faith he left Egypt, not being afraid of the anger of the king, for he endured as seeing him who is invisible.
28 By faith he kept the Passover and sprinkled the blood, so that the Destroyer of the firstborn might not touch them.
29 By faith By faith the people crossed the Red Sea as on dry land, but the Egyptians, when they attempted to do the same, were drowned.
30 By faith the walls of Jericho fell down after they had been encircled for seven days.
31 By faith Rahab the prostitute did not perish with those who were disobedient, because she had given a friendly welcome to the spies.
32 And what more shall I say? For time would fail me to tell of Gideon,Barak, Samson, Jephthah, of David and Samuel and the prophets—33 who through faith conquered kingdoms, enforced justice, obtained promises, stopped the mouths of lions, 34 quenched the power of fire, escaped the edge of the sword, were made strong out of weakness,became mighty in war, put foreign armies to flight.
Do you see where I'm going here? Do you see how every story had an obstacle that seemed impossible to overcome, yet BY FAITH they pressed forward and God moved! BY FAITH they pushed forward God with expectation to see His promises come to life. Do see the impossible become possible?
What is your "BY FAITH" situation you're facing?
What is God calling you to do that will drive you to live BY FAITH?
What is He placing before your to grow your faith?
What is it YOU KNOW that YOU KNOW God is calling you to do BY FAITH? Is it to reconcile a relationship? Is it to forgive someone or even forgive yourself? Is it to answer a call that you KNOW God has designed you for? Is it to obey the small quiet voice inside telling you it's time to give your life fully to Him? To surrender your pain, surrender your doubts and control of your out of control life?
Every single day of my life I choose Christ. I have to. I'm still a sinner, I still make LOTS of mistakes, but it's my choice to live BY FAITH, not by what I see, but by the promises God gives to me in His word. I AM a sinner in need of a savior. BUT GOD through my weaknesses calls me to His GRACE. In 2 Corinthians 12:9 it says "My grace IS sufficient for YOU, for my power is made perfectin weakness." What do you see the unmeasurable love and power in this verse? It doesn't say could be, would be, should or maybe. It says "IS".
God may be calling your today to a task that might seem impossible. It may even be painful, but the beauty and strength He gives to us through His power and gospel goes beyond all perceptions of pain & failure. I know living by faith can sometimes be SO MUCH EASIER said than done, but when has God EVER failed you when you obeyed His call? When has He ever forsaken you? How amazing is it that the God and creator of the universe KNOWS YOU and CALLS YOU by name to live GREATER according to His purpose?! || Romans 8:28-30 ||
I challenge you today to take that step BY FAITH. I challenge you to accept the call God has placed on your life. For such a time as this, God is wanting you to live by a higher standard. A higher standard to NOT be defeated by the enemy. To experience FREEDOM in His grace and truly live out the gospel.